today

today has been rather difficult yet good. i had to contain myself from crying every now and again. and yet surprisingly i don't feel so bad. I feel like i am ready yet once again to start ttc. i know some might say that it is way too early to start thinking of ttc. well i have decided that i am going to the gynea tomorrow as i am not feeling all too good.

things are just a bit hectic at the moment. but i'll get there. the Lord has been good to us in everything that we do and have. i sometimes ask why did this have to happen, but as you know, there is always a reason for everything. i trust that God has a greater plan instore for us.....